Sunday Morning Sadness

It's 7.40, outside the weather is sad, grey sky, leafs falling from trees, small raindrops are falling from the sky. Yes, my friends, this is the weather of Holland. I had an intense week, I actually had a week off, because the Autumn holiday. I had the entire week to learn for the exams on Monday and Wednsday. Also I had time to work more often. My dear friend came back from China and last Friday we spent the whole day together, cathing up, sharing stories and stuff. But today, it's much grimmer. As I sat in the kitchen, watching outside as the grey dark clouds are making it's appearance, I felt a strange sadness crawling from my spine over my body. I am not a depressive person, but when you reflect your current life, the things that keep you busy, the things your closest friends are doing and start to think about a important aspect in life: Love. The weather outside has a huge influence on you emotions. When outside is dark and grey, you don't want to be alone. You want to share a warmth of a somebody close to you. My best friend: Wendy, has a great boyfriend. My niece also has a boyfriend and even my brother is busy with girls. So you start to think: What is wrong with me? The correct answer is: There's is nothing wrong. Like I said, the weather has an influence on your emotions. So today it's a sad day, so my emotions are also sad. It's like a symbiote, feeding on emotions. Today, the symbiote found my deep emotions about love, why I am still single and why others are gratefull. Like you're in a spell of something. What's the antidote against that sad symbiote? Simply accept and move on. It's just a hill/mountain you have to climb, but my friends, it's going to be alright. If I can accept, so can others. It's okay to feel this why, as long you can accept and can move on. By tomorrow the weather is better than you can feel better. Or the weather is the same, so than it's your change to accept and move on. If even that won't work, don't just sit there, wait for another opportunity, so you can get your sh*t ( pardon my French ) and really can move on. It takes baby steps...

Yes, it's getting to cold outside. Brrrr...