I am waiting...
Waiting for that special day. Waiting when that day finally comes when everything is different than others. I'm am not talking about Christmas, but since I brung that word up. First let's talk about it. Tomorrow that day is finally here! A day filled with gifts, food, no worries, family and love. Tomorrow I can give my parents special holiday hugs and show them lots of love. For me, that is what Christmas is all about, love and family!
So back to that day...
2008 was one hell of a ride. I lost someone who is dear to me. I went trough the darkest hole ever, I know for now how real pain is. 2008 was the coming of the Dark Passenger and the Madness. In a way, it was the complete wrong evolution. I really though that 2008 was going to be my year, but it went so wrong. Last year was totally different, more joy, more cheerfull people, but it will be more darker. Every year I say the same thing, this year will be awesome and it will be my year. But I predict, 2009 will be dark and more sinister than ever. My wishes are still on the shelf. My biggest wish to go to NYC is still unfullfilled and that special someone in my life is also on the waiting list. Yeah, I hope either one of these wishes come true. Maybe this Christmas it will be different, but it still an enigma.
As I sit here, looking outside, into the darkness, I feel connected with the darkness. The darkness is empty but has all kinds of things hidden in it. Just like me. I have all these emotions/feelings. I always hope for a light, a light to bring a better perspective into the darkness.
This feeling is far, far, far to deep for Christmas eve. So I put the feelings aside and be jolly, feel the love of my family and many more. I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas and an Awesome New Year.
So for now...
-Strike First-
-Strike Hard-
-No Mercy-