I love Tamia. For those who don't know her, she is an amazing singer, with a silky angel voice. Many many years ago, I listened to her music intensively. It brings so many memories back, I made me remember the time at high school. When I had a major crush on a girl. I was into her. Thus the song: So into you.
Years go by and she didn't want me, but I still like Tamia, hihi. So I listen more of her songs and lyrics, she has really strong songs, together with that cute voice. Yeah, friends I have a crush on her. I wish a girl like that was in my life, makes my life much better. So I am going to share some more songs of her with you guys, I just can't get a enough of her.
Every moment in life is linked with a song or movie. This song by Rachael Yamagata is linked with a curtain moment in my life, listen carefully to the words and you will understand. My friends, she is amazing, just like the song. *sigh*
Everyone has a other body experience, everyone is feeling like someone else. At a curtain point you feel like a beast, like a demon, like a totally different person. Everyone has this experience, whether you are good or bad. It's the same thing as the Hulk, when doctor Banner feels angry and he transforms into the beast, that we like to call the Hulk. Our inner demons and beasts are based on emotions and feelings. When you feel angry or mad, your entire body changes, your whole posture changes with your emotions/feelings.
If you read my blog on a regularly, you know I have a segment that I call: Inner Battle. One of those combatants is the Beast. This one is filled with rage and anger, he doesn't show it's face that often, but it is a scary sight my friends. Luckily, I didn't unleash the inner beast. I am happy that I can cage that reckless animal. But I am going to share that feeling with you guys.
The anger and disbelieve are pumping through you body, your rage is bulking like crazy. You feel like the mad man is taking control. It is like when the most diabolical person wants to crush you and take over. Sometimes it is okay to take over by that demon. Sometimes it is okay to unleash the beast. All you anger wants to break something or hurt someone. Some people can obtain this fierce beast, but some, well lets say, they are weak. The inner beast takes control and for a minute you feel an outer body experience.
I remember many years, I had some issues with the beast. After a series of events, the beast showing it's true colors. Every event has an emotion, some not that pleasant emotions. Every disappointment and pain has a double effect, the pain is twice as cruel. I am not going to share every inch of memory that I got with you, but the events I've been through wasn't really fun. But learned from everything, it made me a stronger and better person. I cherished life and appreciate my friends, it is making me not feel alone. But the beast hasn't lost, it is a part of my life, it is a part of me. When the times get rough, I will unleash the beast...
Is the dark passenger pleased? Will he finally shuts his mouth and stop with the craving? No, the dark passenger is still here, but he is waiting and he is pondering a plan. What new things does he want? It looks that the dark passenger wants more than material stuff, he needs something, somebody in his life. You can buy the world, but it is only pleasant to share it with somebody.
Sitting in a room, with all the things you crave already bought. With the desire of wanting more, you are never completely satisfied. How can you feel happy when you can't share with somebody, showing that somebody your stuff, share your cravings. Not only cravings but also pain. To be honest, the dark passenger is kinda lonely, he is that dark spot in the room, nobody watches, he is the feeling everybody dislikes.
The darkness, everybody lives in some sort of darkness. Everybody feels something when the darkness falls. When it is dark you kinda put your life in order, you organize everything. Every pain or happiness comes to order. The darkness has something mysterious, something that makes you think and wonder. In the dark you even see images, you use your fantasy to create pictures, some good some bad. Some create hearts or other fun images, other bad images like demons. But whatever you make, it is all in your head. Life is like that, you can blame life on the bad things that is happening to you, but you make all those choices. The things you choose will take effect on your life, everybody has one role in life and that is making the right decisions. With bad decisions there is only one to blame and that is you± But it is not that easy as it looks, do the right thing is really hard. You are constantly in fight with yourself, it is like the inner battle.
Sometimes I sit in bad staring into the darkness, thinking, think about my next move, thinking about my life. You fantasize about your perfect life, you hear the noises you want to hear, you smell the smells you like, you see the people you life and want to love. In that perfect life, you make the right choices. I make the right choices, I don't make bad choices. But I sometimes I do. Everyone makes bad choices. The world we live in, is not perfect. The darkness is my friend, the darkness helps me forget the world we live in. The darkness is making me turn into a person I want to be.
As I sit here, with my laptop, listing to Kings of Leon - Use somebody and stare into the black space, my mind becomes empty. Nobody to share this, no-one to share this empty bed. Yeah I could use somebody. You are wondering: "are you depressed, are you emo"? No I am not depressed nor am I an emo. I don't wake up with hate or with the feeling i want to slash my wrists. No, I am not like that. It is normal to feel like there is nobody to share feelings. My friends, yes I am normal. Everybody feels like this at a curtain point in your life. When you see pictures of a lovely lady or see somebody on the street that is absolutely cute, you want to share your life with her, but it can't be. Of course it is normal to fantasize like that. Of course there are curtain people you are rather be with, but face the music, sometimes you need to be happy with what you got. Life is short, spend it all on whatever you want!
As I listen to the words of Caleb, I understand the song. The darkness I sit in, is helping me to understand. In this darkness you can concentrate much better, all your senses are responding better than in the day. The best way to listen to intense songs in the darkness. The darkness is you friend. I listen... I close my eyes... My mind is wandering away..., going to that special place in time and space. Thank you dear darkness, I share these feelings with you. I am not alone...
As you can see, I have a new lay-out. This lay-out is more awesome than the old one, thanks to mister Wesley. I salute you!
With a new lay-out, comes new posts and this segment I like to call, triple F. It stands for Food, Film and Female. Every now and then, I post a new dish or something delish, an awesome film that I saw and to end it an awesome female that crossed my eye.
So first up: Food
I love Beef Wellington and Gordon Ramsey can prepare a mean Beef Wellington. But I am not that keen on mushrooms, but you can easily replace that for something else like herbs or tomato. I tried it once with bell peppers and it was awesome! Here Gordon's version.
Next up: Film
The other day I saw The wrestler. What a great film! It was Mickey Rourke at his best. That movie made a huge impact on me, it changes the way how you look at the wrestling company. Mickey as Randy 'The Ram' really intense and you are feeling how he is feeling. You feel his pain and very emotion he got. Not only Mickey was splendid, but also Marissa Tomei. The way she acted in the movie was marvelous. My advice, go see the wrestler and be amazed!
And last but not least: Female
This one goes out to Zooey Deschanel. Her acting skills and singing abilities are making her a star and she is extremely cute! She was great in Yes, Man and I loved her in Weeds. Sometimes I was I could meet a girl just like her, yup making my life much better!
First of all, what is "straight edge"? It is pretty much simple, it means: no alcohol, no drugs and no tobacco. Do I qualify for a straight edge title? The answer is: yes. I don't need drugs or tobacco to have fun. I have fun with lots of sugar and chocolate! When I go out, I don't need alcohol to have fun, I have fun with my friends. So laughter is way better than alcohol or drugs. I use my drive to work hard and I love the completion.
But where did the term "straight edge" comes from? The term was used in 80s by a hardcore punk band called Minor Threat, you can hear the term in their song "Straight Edge". You can also find straight edge ideas in songs by a 70s band called The Modern Lovers. Especially in their songs: "I'm Straight" and "She Cracked". A really straight edge song is “Keep It Clean" by first wave English punk band The Vibrators. Straight edge can be associated with punk rock, especially the faster subgenre of hardcore punk that developed in the late 1970s and early 1980s. Most straight edge people feel connected with the punk ideas like individualism, dedication to school/work and live-for-the-moment attitude. The straight edge era started on the east coast of USA in Washington D.C. and in New York. It didn’t took that long to spread through the US and Canada. A lot of 90s bands gained popular due the straight edge era. Some of the “straight edge” bands: Minor Threat. State of Alert, Teen Idles, Reno and Negative FX.
The straight edge symbol is the letter X. Most people are wearing that X as a marking, symbol or tattoo on the back of one or both hands. Some of the followers are known as "hardcore kids", it is connected with the hardcore and punk music scene where straight edge stands as the centre of attention. Also some followers of straight edge have also incorporated the symbol into clothing and pins, or use black duck tapes on their hands. A punk band, The Teen Idles were scheduled to play in San Francisco, but when the band arrived, club management discovered that the entire band was under the legal drinking age and therefore should be denied entry to the club. As a compromise, management marked each of the Idles' hands with a large black "X" as a warning to the club's staff not to serve alcohol to the band. Upon returning to Washington D.C., the band suggested this same system to local clubs as a means to allow teenagers in to see musical performances without being served alcohol.
Being straight edge is not trend. No, it's a way of living. It's accepting life and enjoying every moment in life, you don't need drugs or alcohol. It's is living life at the purest. Like everybody is saying:" you only live once, so enjoy". It's hard to live like this, it is not that easy. Everybody has an off day an then you wonder, “that is all for”. It takes a big step to realize that you want to succeed, that you want to do this thing. I think everybody struggles with this feeling, even the biggest and baldest guys/girls struggle with this. Everybody feels weak at a curtain point. You are strong when you are aware of the feeling that you are willing to change, that you are willing to be stronger mentally and fiscally
CM Punk is a straight edge follower. This guy is a wrestler and he is one of the best around. He dedicates his life to straight edge, he feeds of completion and the drive to wrestle. He doesn't need drugs or cigarettes; he uses his desire to wrestle.
On monday, I woke up bad. I didn't felt for school, but today it's a little bit different. I woke up and beat the alarm. That means, it's gonna be a good day! And then, time to look through the window and what do I see?
Hello Sunshine, coming to my life!
The sun is showing it's face and kinda saying: "Goodmorning Miguel". So I think this will be a good day!
Remember, the first time to school, it was on that Monday. You don't want to go to school, because sitting at home or stay in bed is much better. Well, I felled that same thing today. My alarm went off at 6.30, way too early. But I managed to get all my guts together and put on my clothes, packed my bag and went to my glorious school on that Monday morning. I only had one hour of school, yeah, one hour. After that one hour, I went to the city, a little bit of shopping always make my day. Off course that helped a lot! And finally I bought Street Fighter 4, my friends it's awesome!!!!
